Ok, so I'm a little slow. It's already January 9th and I know you're so over the New Year thing.
But here I am still trying to decide if I'll actually set official resolutions.
I never really have. I feel that I'm always working on my life and there's no new goals I specifically want to achieve right now. At least no more than I wanted in December or November. What I need to do this year, perhaps, is balance my goals. Focus on different things and allow more room for a bit of everything. No point in spending all my time working on long-term financial goals. That's what long-term means, me.
I guess that's pretty standard for goals. Everyone wants to work on their physical self, right? Exercising, nutrition, the norm.
I'll take you one further. I need to start getting fuckin' dressed like a goddamned lady in the morning. It needs swearing because I need a kick in the ass about this. I stay at home all day, almost every day. Even when I work, it's from home - I'm a translator. I love it. But it has become way too easy to live in comfortable pants and a ponytail. It can get depressing to catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. My dressing room has become just a closet. I mean, if shoes could cry... Of course, I might only be feeling this way because it's winter. Even with the heat on, it's sweaters all the way. But not doing my hair? The blow-dryer shoots hot air. No excuses about the cold there.
I need to strike a balance between stepping it up and not beating myself up over it. And not questioning my motives too much.
My spirit needs work. I'm prone to over-thinking and depression in a cynical, jaded way. A long time ago, Life was not kind to me. I retreated, believing that any happiness I eventually felt existed because of my isolation. I need to believe in humanity and happiness and that the world is inherently good again. I am infinitely happier now than I have ever been in my life, but I still need work. On this one however, I never know where to start. (A happy) life's a journey, not a destination. Or some such
Getting out more is probably a good place to start though. A lot of people say life gets in the way. But in our case, we're just boring. We actually love a night in watching TV or movies. When we go out, it tends to be just the 2 of us and it doesn't take long before we'd rather be home. We need to see our families more and our friends too. At the very least, we can text people now! We have a proper cell phone and everything.
That's right, we upgraded to a smart phone only this past year. We were still using a clunky flip phone. It even had an antenna! That's another aspect I've got to work on. Learning technology at a faster speed. It changes so quickly and is constantly becoming more important. Maybe getting an electronic reader thing-y would help me read more too. Damn you all and your interesting blogs with pretty pictures! I found myself reading more blogs than books this past year and I so love books. I miss them. But only I can change this so I gotta get on it!
I'm also trying to be more of an informed consumer. I'm not bad on this one, but it's so easy to get lazy or to consider budgetary concerns first. I want to try buying more local stuff and being more conscious about the environmental impact of my own consumerism. Also, need to stop getting grossed out when I accidentally toss a can in the garbage instead of the recycling bin. C'mon me, you can fish it out and rinse it, it's not that gross.
Of course, no matter what other goals I pursue, my main focus always seems to be financial goals. We made great decisions last year and are really starting to see the results finally. Much, much more to do but it's all so sloooow. Saving up takes so long and the older you get, the more expensive the stuff you seem to be saving for, right?! Though we're not barely making it, we're not lighting our smokes with money either. Of course, quitting smoking would definitely help us get there! Isn't that ironic? No, really, is it? I'm never sure.
New 2013 resolution: understand irony.